admin From Logic to Listening
My personal journey is the reason I feel such a strong calling to help others come home to themselves. It’s a path from being stuck in illness, performance, and disconnection from my truest self – to healing, awakening, and realigning with my soul’s truth. It has taken me far from where I started, and the fact that I am now able to work intuitively, psychically, and energetically is something I could never have imagined just six years ago when it all started.
That journey – from head to heart, from logic to inner knowing – has been one of the most transformative experiences of my life. And it’s important for me to share it. Because I know many carry a similar inner contrast.
Roots and Contrasts
From an early age, I learned to think my way through every decision and let my head control everything. I was rational, analytical, and loved understanding how things worked. While also being full of big emotions that was sometimes hard to control. I struggled to find a balance between my two sides. I overthought every choice, weighed pros and cons, and struggled immensely with making decisions. It never felt like there was a clear answer – only possible mistakes to avoid. I never trusted my inner compass, because I never learned it existed.
Spirituality wasn’t part of the environment I grew up in. Logic, science, and reason were the only valid lenses, and things like intuition, energy, and soul work were never discussed – certainly not anything I was taught to trust. But deep inside, there was always a curiosity and a sense that there was more. I’ve always been drawn to the unseen and the mystical, even though no one around me was. I often wished I had “powers” – but I thought those were gifts only others were born with. Not me.
An Inner Collision
For most of my life, I’ve never quite felt I fit in. I’ve often felt “wrong” around other people – “too much” and, at the same time, “not enough.” In trying to make sense of who I am, I’ve examined myself from every possible angle, hoping to find clarity.
I worked hard to become a “normal”, well-adjusted person—someone who didn’t take up too much space. Someone who was liked, competent, and had everything under control. And just before my inner journey began, I had succeeded quite well with my mission. I had created a life that fit the mold: a family, a beautiful home, a secure job.
But still, it felt like something was missing. I had put so much energy into becoming who I thought I needed to be, that I had ultimately lost sight of who I truly was.
Eventually, my body began to speak what my soul had been whispering for so long.
I developed unexplainable symptoms: dizziness, headaches, brain fog, heart palpitations, panic attacks, eczema, and severe insomnia. It felt like I was breaking apart from the inside.
I got scared and underwent all kinds of medical tests, but according to the doctors, I was completely healthy—even though my body was screaming for help.
Searching for Answers
I began searching for answers on my own. I turned to science and read every piece of research I could find about the connection between diet, lifestyle, and health. I soon realized that my issues could be traced to something called histamine intolerance – a condition with very little recognition in conventional medicine, but some discussion in functional medicine and online support groups. So I shifted my focus there and learned everything I could about histamine intolerance and the body’s biochemistry.
I started following a histamine-free diet, took supplements and antihistamines, and for several years I self-medicated with over-the-counter drugs, letting my histamine intolerance dictate my life and choices. And yes, it did ease the worst symptoms and made daily life more manageable – but I felt stuck. Trapped in my body and limited in my life. And deep down, my way of living didn’t align with my inner belief in the body’s intelligence – that a sick body is a body in imbalance, and that if given the right support in terms of diet, exercise, and rest, the body can heal itself.
A New Kind of Truth
I was dedicated to finding answers as to why I had suddenly been hit with this problem and what might be the root causes of it. I devoted every waking moment to seeking information and listening to podcasts on functional medicine. I listened everywhere – in the car, on walks, while cleaning or cooking.
And one day, I suddenly stumbled upon an episode about healing generational trauma. It didn’t at all align with what I usually listened to, but the chills I felt throughout my body when I read the title made it impossible not to press play. After listening, the feeling was even stronger. I knew in every part of me that this was something I needed to learn more about.
I didn’t realize it yet, but this was the turning point. The moment when logic would no longer be enough. The moment I would begin to open up to energy — and to something much deeper than what I’d experienced so far.
Continue following my journey in part 2.
